Halleulia!!! Eye passed inspection!

Hi,

I went to the eye specialist this morning and he is not concerned. He is having me get a picture so they can recheck in six months but he sounded really certain this is not a melanoma.

That is really a relief to me. I was thanking God on the way home and you for praying.

Today we are going to pickup Paul's 1957 Chevy. He had the transmission reworked and Thursday is "Alexis day". Alexis is the daughter of one of my best friends and she comes to visit me on Thursdays.She is an amazing young woman in many ways.

I better run,

I feel good and i feel that peace that can only be a gift. Thank you for all your prayers! I know they are the
answer.

In HIM,

Carol

Carol

Not Funny!

OK, yesterday was a really challenging day. To keep it short, I had three appointmernts. One took 11/2 hours, one took three hours and the last one was with a psychiatrist....how fitting.(only 1/2 hour, which was all we could afford considering the rest of the day.) The worst news of the day is that I am not going to be able to take hormones regardless of if I have a complete mastectomy or not. That one really sent me realing. I have struggled as many of you know when I cannot take the hormones. Hence the trip to the psychiastrist. Paul went with to the last one. After hearing about the ticket a got between the first one and the second and the fender bender after the second I think he felt it was in all of our best interest to have him drive.. She allowed him to come in with me so he got a better understanding of why she may be able to help. We both liked her a lot and felt a little reassured.

So today starts out good, the cleaning lady came and that is always a good day, well usually. I have a lunch date with Krista (who is at Nothwestern College this year) where I get to go to college vicariously each week at Wed. lunch and I thoroughly enjoy it. My only appointment for the day was to get new glasses. How hard can that be? Well as it turns out I have a freckle on my eye that may be nothing or it maybe a melanoma which than could be cancer. I really wasn't ready for this one so I'm meeting with an eye speciailist tomorrow morning at 8:45 and feel really lucky to get in that soon also a bit concerned at what they said in that little back room to get me in so quick. Hopefully the results will be good like the repeat ultra sound I had
 yesterday. It didn't show anything so no second biopsy. YEH! Praise God and thank you for your prayers.

Please pray specifically for courage in the face of the strorm, Faith and trust in God's will for my life and for God's love and support for all those whol love and support me

To top that off, our baby, Paula, turns 40 on the 29th, which makes us really old as one of my little friends

said. She is no longer my friend!!!

Update on this rascally cancer!!!

 I picked Carol's chair for my Blog because they (Mike's Chair) have a song called "Let the Waters Rise" that expresses a lot of how I felt, after I first heard I had cancer again. I was driving in the car about 10 minutes after I heard the diagnosis and  turned the radio on and said OK God, please give me a song and the first words to come out were " God I trust in you" then it goes on to say "you were faithful before, you'll be faithful again" I'm holding your hand.There's a raging sea, right in front of me, wants to pull me in, bring me to my knees, so let let the waters rise if you want them to-I will follow you, God your love is enough, you will pull me through. I am holding on to you."


I do take comfort in these words that were so right there when I needed them.God has spared me the fear the first part of the song talks about so far and I pray that he will continue to give me peace. Please pray that I might honor HIM in all that I do regardless of the plan he has for me.




Well, they did the MRI yesterday and found some other suspicious something or other on the other side so now we are back to base one!! Tuesday I have another mammogram/ ultrasound and if need be a biopsy of a different location than the first .ECH! After that I go to Genetic testing so the girls in our family can be tested to see if they carry the same gene.


That's it for today. Joey is here helping me Houseclean the kitchen!'


With you, trusting HIM,


Carol